I'm Sorry...

If I haven't visited your blogs in a while. I'm sorry if I haven't been able to update this blog for how many days now. I'm sorry if I promised to do your buttons by Sunday and I don't know if I can finish it by then. I am in the middle of a very scary episode in my life, something that hit me seven years ago and I am afraid it has come back. What am I talking about?

It was my first year at the University of the East when TB ailment hit me. That was the year when I first started traveling on a long distance just to go to school so I was constantly tired then, which is why the TB infection easily got into my system. Those were the longest six months of my life. It was the first time that I had a serious health problem, and I felt so much love from my family while I was going through that phase. Luckily, I was treated before the disease got worse. It did not enter my mind until now that I have dormant TB infection that is just waiting for my immune system to weaken before it attacks again.

I think most of you know that Paul has not been here for almost three months now, and in the span of time that he wasn't here, I am everyday struggling with the responsibilities of taking care of Svet while working while housekeeping at the same time. Since we have no house help, this constant whirlwind of activity has taken its toll and for the last three days, I have been having fevers during the afternoon and I have lost weight already. I am still monitoring if this will continue for the next two days, and off to the doctor I'll go so he could check if my hunch is true.

Although it is not confirmed yet, I am now fearing for my child's safety. I pray so hard every night, I hope I am wrong. I don't want her to be suffering the same disease in such a young age. My heart is in constant anxiousness of what tomorrow or the day after that will bring. Please, this is the first time that I am going to ask this from you. Please pray for me.

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21 comments:

Genejosh said...

I'll back you up in prayer..Everytime we pray we move the hand of God to do the things which we can't do..God bless you Kaye

Filipino Zinergy said...

pahinga ka muna ate kaye. ingats palagi. mwah! musta na rin kay svet

Melissa said...

Kaye - I wish I could just pop over and lend a hand ((hugs)) I hope everything turns out okay ((hugs))
xo

Polly said...

My heart breaks for you, for I know this is taking such a toll, both emotionally and physically. You are such a sweet thing and God will see you through whatever happens, good news or bad. You will have a stregth you never knew you had. He has plans for you that you are not even aware of yet. Take heart, Friend. There are many who care. XXOOXXO

Sara said...

Hi Kaye
You are in my thoughts and prayers
Hugs
Sara

"C" a.k.a. Wonder Wifey said...

I'll pray for you. Eat lots of Balut (I heard it's good for the lungs, seriously). You'll get over it soon with proper treatment so don't worry. But take care of yourself too! Hey, I love reading your posts. They are very informative (and grammatically clean!)compared to many!!!

Tetcha said...

I hope it's just fatigue. Please go visit a doctor soon. Our body has a way of telling us when something is not okay and follow the doctor's advice.

PinayWAHM said...

Hi Kaye....

You got my prayers! I hope you're doing much much better na. It's also good to hear [read] that your h is back home with you.

Do take care always. I think getting an 8-hr job is a good thing to at least give you some kind of a schedule while getting paid.

J

redamethyst said...

I can just feel how worried are you. I got to read the next entry to know the result. do take care

Sherry said...

I am like you always anxious of tomorrow

Sherry said...

health check up here cost USD$120

Sherry said...

it is better go for health check up, I know its costly but at least you know the result.

redamethyst said...

having a check up once in a while would help, don't forget na importante rin ang health kaya hwg masyadong wahmaholic. hehe

Genejosh said...

nagyon ko pa to nabasa marce..hope this episode of your life makes you more vigilant in making your health a priority amidst your hectic schedules...

Genejosh said...

have you gone to the doctor marce for exam? ganoon talaga yong TB, it crawls for those who are weak kaya ako i try to minimize my time sa blog bec. health is wealth..minsan kasi palagi akong napawisan and minsan i forget to change kasi nabusy kacocoment..he..he...

Genejosh said...

time management and discipline is needed for us marce...my heart breaks for you marce at this time that you work, take care of Svet and do household chores at the same time...

Sherry said...

over here the teachers will need to get health test first before they can teach the kids.

Sherry said...

yeah better check up for the TB.

Sherry said...

health is number 1 then 2nd family, 3rd career.

Sherry said...

being parent is not easy, my mom is housewife

Sherry said...

or this way health first then career as need of money to support family.